"I can't do this all on my own, no I know that I'm no superman." - Lazlo Bane - Superman
I put that as today's inspirational quote because it is so true. No man is an island. I think the people around help so much but I think their negativity can really bring you down. Be sure keep the people that will help you achieve your dreams and keep the negativity out.
Today was bittersweet. I had class which was good but after my classes, I found out that my dad's sister, my aunt passed away last week. It was upsetting for me but even more upsetting for my dad. She was his only sibling and now that his parents have passed and his sister has and his wife... my dad is the last one. And that straight up shows me what strength and determination can do and why I will never give up on myself, my friends, my family or my dreams. You see, both of my parents overcame great odds with their health. I get very emotional when I talk about my mom so I'm going to talk about my dad right now. You see, my dad has had several massive strokes, a heart attack, seizures, pneumonia and more since 2004 (about). At one point, his vitals were zero in an ambulance and he came back. He has had all these odds against him but he is still here. He is the strongest man I know and my inspiration.
So, my aunt passed away, my dad was very sad today since he just found out, yet still... there was good that came from today. I got hired for two shifts over the next two shifts which means more money. My acoustic band, named "Day Becomes Night" finally practiced and we solidified a setlist for our first show next week. This is the first time I will EVER be playing guitar in front of an audience. I am excited and nervous but it will be great, I hope to have many pictures for you. Also, my sister is putting in a garden at our new house and she is very excited about that, which makes me happy.
All in all, today was a good day. Sad for my dad but even he managed to rise above it.
I will say. That last spring I lost a dear friend of mine from the University of Hartford, last June I was with my girlfriend at the time when her grandmother passed, August my mom passed away and now in January my aunt passed. These have been my first experiences with death so closely and so real and I gotta tell ya, I don't care for it. I know it's a part of life. But I'm just not a fan.
I miss my mom a lot. I think about her a lot. I wish I could talk to her again. Sometimes I convince myself that she is only gone for a little and will come back and things will be like they always were. I know that's impossible but, gee it would be great.
It is times like these that I take a second and think about all the amazing people I have in my life, and HAVE had in my life. Such amazing people, like my mother, and my aunt, and the list is endless and I just think, when you are surrounded by so much good and can find the beauty in the negative spaces, how can you be upset. I mean, yes I'm sad that my mom isn't here but at the same time, I get so happy to know that... she WAS here. I met her. I knew how great of a person she was and through that I will be able to always remember her. Maybe this is just hogwash, but it is what I believe.
Thanks for reading again. Salutations :)
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