SO today was pretty relaxed and quiet until about 9 o'clock when I did something I don't usually do... I went out with people and had a good time. Who knows, this might be the start of something new.
That last bit made me sound pretty pathetic. What I mean is that I have friends down in Florida, but most of them are just like... talk in class, text outside of class and do nothing else. Well, tonight wasn't one of those nights and it was awesome and that's really all I have to say.
Gotta get to bed. Have a great night, world.
P.s. I say world because apparently people from Russia read my blog?! Frickin' awesome. Show yourselves!
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Post XVII - Jan 29
So, today continued an amazing family filled weekend, went to the park with everyone. Dad, Sue, Ray, Kids... did a bunch of stuff, had a great day. I've been thinking about things. And the number one thing I've been pondering is... if all I am concerned about what makes me happy and how things affect me...does that make me selfish. And I concluded, yes. And I don't know how much that bothers everyone... but I do put others into consideration but the end result, the most important factor is me. And I'm sorry if that bothers anyone. But I've been thinking this way for a month or two now and you know, it's the happiest I've been in years.
That being said. Have a great week, everyone. More philosophy tomorrow. For now, sleep.
That being said. Have a great week, everyone. More philosophy tomorrow. For now, sleep.
Post XVI - January 28, 2012
So, reflecting on yesterday. I spent the ENTIRE day with my sister, brother-in-law and their friends. We went to an art festival and then ended the night playing Michigan rummy. Something that I want to point out is that my sister and I have had some really big fights in the past and since my mom passed away we really came together and have been working together seamlessly. Really, we had one or two big fights but we work so well together it is almost scary. And all in all, it was nice just to hang out and relax with her for a day. We don't do it a lot but it was nice to do it for once. So, that was my positive moment for yesterday :)
Friday, January 27, 2012
Day XV - Jan 27
Today was very relaxing, deposited money (yay) and just hung out. But I just wanna think about some of the people in my life right now. This one goes to all the people in CT that havent forgotten about me over the past several years that I have been gone. The ones that still text me or IM me or comment on my facebook or check this blog on a regular basis. It's true friends like you guys that make me smile on a daily basis. So, thank you for keeping me in your life. It means a lot :)
I'm gonna crawl in bed and watch Boy Meets World. Text me up :)
I'm gonna crawl in bed and watch Boy Meets World. Text me up :)
XIV - 1/26
So yesterday was a good day overall but the biggest thing was going to see an amazing concert. 5 bands for 15 dollars all acoustic and intimate. Just amazing. I really love music. I am able to connect with songs so personally. It is a great art form. Some songs that I really loved last night were "Pinky Swear" and "Augusta, Georgia" by Into It. Over It., and "Blame It On Bad Luck" and "Killing Time" by Bayside. Just great songs. Great guys too. I met 3 of them after the show, took pictures... just great. Also, a friend of mine came to the concert with me, which hasn't happened since I've been in Florida -- I end up going to concerts alone. But it was nice. I can't wait for the next concert I plan to attend which is a band called The Wonder Years and their albums "The Upsides" and "Suburbia" really got me through my hard time from August through November. So, yes. Yesterday was great. In an hour or two I will write an entry about today. So stay tuned. :)
Thursday, January 26, 2012
XIII - Jan 25
Ok. So today was pretty relaxing and chill, yet busy and productive. The highlight being that I am just waiting on my assignment to begin my observation hours in the local high school, one step closer to becoming a teacher.
I realize that this year WOULD have been my graduation year form college had things gone according to plan. And usually that thought would upset me. But now I am seeing the world with new eyes. I have been able to do somethings that few people will ever say that they have done. I was in a touring rock band, I was an extra in a movie, I road tripped up and down the east coast, I get PAID to see concerts, I've met some amazing people, I've grown so much as a person... and yeah, I'm sure things would be much different if I was still there, some for better and for worse, but I can't say that I totally mind not graduating this spring. I've learned so much in the past 3 years or so that a college classroom wouldn't be able to. I really came to terms with who I am this past year and, though I'm still figuring it all out, I'm much more accepting of who I am and what I want and how I want to get it. The world is mine. Now it's time to go get it.
The only thing that I feel, with all my friends from my first college getting their real jobs in order is that I am now anxious to get my life there, too. I can't wait to start teaching and work on getting my masters and maybe even my doctorate.
Another thing I wanna touch on is that when I woke up this morning I saw someone's status on facebook about no longer wanting to date younger guys cause they are immature and don't want to settle down and they just want to play games and I'm thinking...well... YEAH! You're only young once. You should go out and experience as much of life as you WANT to before you can't. That's why I am actually ok with being single right now. I don't have the time or energy to devote to one person to the extent of being a girlfriend. Granted, I am still ok with flirting and even not serious dating... but I don't want to be tied down, right now. This is a big change from what I've wanted my whole life, and even a year ago... and even 6 months ago. I may have feelings for a person but I am not acting on them because right now, my priorities are myself, my goals, my dreams, my education and my family. And if you aren't supporting of that... then GET OUT of my life. I seriously feel like I am on the verge of taking over the world and believe me. It is coming!
Big day tomorrow., time to rest up. Remember, people. Get out on your dreams! Good night and good luck.
I realize that this year WOULD have been my graduation year form college had things gone according to plan. And usually that thought would upset me. But now I am seeing the world with new eyes. I have been able to do somethings that few people will ever say that they have done. I was in a touring rock band, I was an extra in a movie, I road tripped up and down the east coast, I get PAID to see concerts, I've met some amazing people, I've grown so much as a person... and yeah, I'm sure things would be much different if I was still there, some for better and for worse, but I can't say that I totally mind not graduating this spring. I've learned so much in the past 3 years or so that a college classroom wouldn't be able to. I really came to terms with who I am this past year and, though I'm still figuring it all out, I'm much more accepting of who I am and what I want and how I want to get it. The world is mine. Now it's time to go get it.
The only thing that I feel, with all my friends from my first college getting their real jobs in order is that I am now anxious to get my life there, too. I can't wait to start teaching and work on getting my masters and maybe even my doctorate.
Another thing I wanna touch on is that when I woke up this morning I saw someone's status on facebook about no longer wanting to date younger guys cause they are immature and don't want to settle down and they just want to play games and I'm thinking...well... YEAH! You're only young once. You should go out and experience as much of life as you WANT to before you can't. That's why I am actually ok with being single right now. I don't have the time or energy to devote to one person to the extent of being a girlfriend. Granted, I am still ok with flirting and even not serious dating... but I don't want to be tied down, right now. This is a big change from what I've wanted my whole life, and even a year ago... and even 6 months ago. I may have feelings for a person but I am not acting on them because right now, my priorities are myself, my goals, my dreams, my education and my family. And if you aren't supporting of that... then GET OUT of my life. I seriously feel like I am on the verge of taking over the world and believe me. It is coming!
Big day tomorrow., time to rest up. Remember, people. Get out on your dreams! Good night and good luck.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Day XII - Jan 24, 2012
"I can't do this all on my own, no I know that I'm no superman." - Lazlo Bane - Superman
I put that as today's inspirational quote because it is so true. No man is an island. I think the people around help so much but I think their negativity can really bring you down. Be sure keep the people that will help you achieve your dreams and keep the negativity out.
Today was bittersweet. I had class which was good but after my classes, I found out that my dad's sister, my aunt passed away last week. It was upsetting for me but even more upsetting for my dad. She was his only sibling and now that his parents have passed and his sister has and his wife... my dad is the last one. And that straight up shows me what strength and determination can do and why I will never give up on myself, my friends, my family or my dreams. You see, both of my parents overcame great odds with their health. I get very emotional when I talk about my mom so I'm going to talk about my dad right now. You see, my dad has had several massive strokes, a heart attack, seizures, pneumonia and more since 2004 (about). At one point, his vitals were zero in an ambulance and he came back. He has had all these odds against him but he is still here. He is the strongest man I know and my inspiration.
So, my aunt passed away, my dad was very sad today since he just found out, yet still... there was good that came from today. I got hired for two shifts over the next two shifts which means more money. My acoustic band, named "Day Becomes Night" finally practiced and we solidified a setlist for our first show next week. This is the first time I will EVER be playing guitar in front of an audience. I am excited and nervous but it will be great, I hope to have many pictures for you. Also, my sister is putting in a garden at our new house and she is very excited about that, which makes me happy.
All in all, today was a good day. Sad for my dad but even he managed to rise above it.
I will say. That last spring I lost a dear friend of mine from the University of Hartford, last June I was with my girlfriend at the time when her grandmother passed, August my mom passed away and now in January my aunt passed. These have been my first experiences with death so closely and so real and I gotta tell ya, I don't care for it. I know it's a part of life. But I'm just not a fan.
I miss my mom a lot. I think about her a lot. I wish I could talk to her again. Sometimes I convince myself that she is only gone for a little and will come back and things will be like they always were. I know that's impossible but, gee it would be great.
It is times like these that I take a second and think about all the amazing people I have in my life, and HAVE had in my life. Such amazing people, like my mother, and my aunt, and the list is endless and I just think, when you are surrounded by so much good and can find the beauty in the negative spaces, how can you be upset. I mean, yes I'm sad that my mom isn't here but at the same time, I get so happy to know that... she WAS here. I met her. I knew how great of a person she was and through that I will be able to always remember her. Maybe this is just hogwash, but it is what I believe.
Thanks for reading again. Salutations :)
I put that as today's inspirational quote because it is so true. No man is an island. I think the people around help so much but I think their negativity can really bring you down. Be sure keep the people that will help you achieve your dreams and keep the negativity out.
Today was bittersweet. I had class which was good but after my classes, I found out that my dad's sister, my aunt passed away last week. It was upsetting for me but even more upsetting for my dad. She was his only sibling and now that his parents have passed and his sister has and his wife... my dad is the last one. And that straight up shows me what strength and determination can do and why I will never give up on myself, my friends, my family or my dreams. You see, both of my parents overcame great odds with their health. I get very emotional when I talk about my mom so I'm going to talk about my dad right now. You see, my dad has had several massive strokes, a heart attack, seizures, pneumonia and more since 2004 (about). At one point, his vitals were zero in an ambulance and he came back. He has had all these odds against him but he is still here. He is the strongest man I know and my inspiration.
So, my aunt passed away, my dad was very sad today since he just found out, yet still... there was good that came from today. I got hired for two shifts over the next two shifts which means more money. My acoustic band, named "Day Becomes Night" finally practiced and we solidified a setlist for our first show next week. This is the first time I will EVER be playing guitar in front of an audience. I am excited and nervous but it will be great, I hope to have many pictures for you. Also, my sister is putting in a garden at our new house and she is very excited about that, which makes me happy.
All in all, today was a good day. Sad for my dad but even he managed to rise above it.
I will say. That last spring I lost a dear friend of mine from the University of Hartford, last June I was with my girlfriend at the time when her grandmother passed, August my mom passed away and now in January my aunt passed. These have been my first experiences with death so closely and so real and I gotta tell ya, I don't care for it. I know it's a part of life. But I'm just not a fan.
I miss my mom a lot. I think about her a lot. I wish I could talk to her again. Sometimes I convince myself that she is only gone for a little and will come back and things will be like they always were. I know that's impossible but, gee it would be great.
It is times like these that I take a second and think about all the amazing people I have in my life, and HAVE had in my life. Such amazing people, like my mother, and my aunt, and the list is endless and I just think, when you are surrounded by so much good and can find the beauty in the negative spaces, how can you be upset. I mean, yes I'm sad that my mom isn't here but at the same time, I get so happy to know that... she WAS here. I met her. I knew how great of a person she was and through that I will be able to always remember her. Maybe this is just hogwash, but it is what I believe.
Thanks for reading again. Salutations :)
100 Days Positive - Day XI
So today was a big test. I made a mistake and lost something my family needs. And I have no idea where it wound up. And it bummed me out. But I thought of the positives and made my day significantly better. Dude. This week is gonna be awesome. Class tomorrow, then band practice, nothing Wednesday, then thursday, more class, band practice and then seeing the Where's the Band? Tour... so stoked. Time for bed now. Remember, nothing is "too much" unless you let it be. Stay positive, folks. Smile. Laugh. Love you all!
Does anyone even read this anymore?
Does anyone even read this anymore?
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Post X - Jan 22
Today was a pretty relaxing day. Just hung out with the family, played with the little kids...just good stuff. I don't really have a lot to say right now. I'm just feeling great and I feel like I can accomplish great things this year. And I will.
Post IX - Jan 21
So I worked 2 jobs yesterday. But first I woke up, deposited my check (nice) then drove to work, worked my first job blah blah. Some highlights of my day... first a co-worker told me that my supervisor also barbacks at a bar across the street and that they are looking for a new barback. So after the first job, I went, filled out an application and things look good though I'm not getting my hopes up.
Then the second job started. I was barbacking at the Bad Habit Lounge again, this time, Fuel was playing. It was a great show, I really love the club I work at and the people I work with, it's great. The only reason I'm trying to get another barback gig is because I am in such a need for money and I've only been working BHL once a week and my wallet and bank accounts are crying.
Speaking of which. I got paid for the club last night, made good money. I will deposit that tomorrow. Also taking dad to the doctors. I think that is all I have to report. I mean, I'm being positive because old me would be so depressed about being broke. But now... I'm just working through it. Cheers :)
Then the second job started. I was barbacking at the Bad Habit Lounge again, this time, Fuel was playing. It was a great show, I really love the club I work at and the people I work with, it's great. The only reason I'm trying to get another barback gig is because I am in such a need for money and I've only been working BHL once a week and my wallet and bank accounts are crying.
Speaking of which. I got paid for the club last night, made good money. I will deposit that tomorrow. Also taking dad to the doctors. I think that is all I have to report. I mean, I'm being positive because old me would be so depressed about being broke. But now... I'm just working through it. Cheers :)
Friday, January 20, 2012
Post VIII - 1/20/12
"It is not things that are disturbing but your view of things which are disturbing."
I don't know who originally said the above quote. But my psychology professor said it a lot last semester. This post is dedicated in large part to all my friends. They are great people and I love them a lot but since I've had my "positivity epiphany" I feel like I need to be preachy and hopefully help them reach the same sentiment that I have reached. Does life suck? Do events make us sad? Or! Is it our perception of all these things what makes them so negative. A word is just a word. But in context and with a human made definition the word means so much more. The same thing can be applied with life events. It's like they say, when one door closes, another opens. Did you lose your job? Or were you given the opportunity to follow a new path in life? Yes, upon being fired or laid off, you may be panicked and frenzied not knowing how you are going to come up with the necessary money to live your life but the sun will come out tomorrow and if not, you'll survive a cloudy day too.
I know about bad days. And months. And even years. But I'm still here. There are two ways to live your life. Focus on the positives and see everyday as a new opportunity to succeed and improve OR focus on the negatives and not give yourself, or your life, a break. Bad things happen. But if you focus on that there is no where to go.
A little more philosophy tonight. Keep shining on, folks. Tomorrow is another day to knock 'em dead :)
I don't know who originally said the above quote. But my psychology professor said it a lot last semester. This post is dedicated in large part to all my friends. They are great people and I love them a lot but since I've had my "positivity epiphany" I feel like I need to be preachy and hopefully help them reach the same sentiment that I have reached. Does life suck? Do events make us sad? Or! Is it our perception of all these things what makes them so negative. A word is just a word. But in context and with a human made definition the word means so much more. The same thing can be applied with life events. It's like they say, when one door closes, another opens. Did you lose your job? Or were you given the opportunity to follow a new path in life? Yes, upon being fired or laid off, you may be panicked and frenzied not knowing how you are going to come up with the necessary money to live your life but the sun will come out tomorrow and if not, you'll survive a cloudy day too.
I know about bad days. And months. And even years. But I'm still here. There are two ways to live your life. Focus on the positives and see everyday as a new opportunity to succeed and improve OR focus on the negatives and not give yourself, or your life, a break. Bad things happen. But if you focus on that there is no where to go.
A little more philosophy tonight. Keep shining on, folks. Tomorrow is another day to knock 'em dead :)
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Post VII- 1/19/12
Oh lord. Almost forgot to post a blog tonight! Well. Today was class and that was about all that happened.. Oh! And my acoustic band, Day Becomes Night, got booked for a show (which will be our first) on February 2nd in Daytona Beach. It will be my first show in over a year AND it will be my first show EVER performing guitar. And I am so excited. That's all to report. Working 10 to 7 tomorrow. I leave you with some words of wisdom...
"Find something that you love, and spread it like wildfire. There is such thing as a perfect world but without each other, it does not exist. There is such a thing as happiness and this is it." - Joe Ragosta (one of my true inspirations, musically and as a person.)
Have a good night everyone.
"Find something that you love, and spread it like wildfire. There is such thing as a perfect world but without each other, it does not exist. There is such a thing as happiness and this is it." - Joe Ragosta (one of my true inspirations, musically and as a person.)
Have a good night everyone.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Post VI - January Eighteenth Two Thousand Twelve
First question I pose to you today: "How long will I be able to go until I reach a roman numeral that I do not know?"
Second: "Doesn't the date look weird written long form?"
So today was pretty relaxed. I watched my two year old niece and few month old nephew while my sister was at the hospital getting tests done, don't know the full result yet but so far so good. That is something to be positive about. I also picked up my first school book and I am about to do my first homework assignments of the semester after I write these things down. That was my entire day.
Oh! I also woke up to a phone call from the temp agency I work for asking me to work on Friday and Saturday...which means more money, which makes me happy. I like waking up to those calls. I hate waking up to debt collectors. They suck. But whatcha gonna do?
Alright, well. Time to listen to music and read about public speaking. Goodnight!
Second: "Doesn't the date look weird written long form?"
So today was pretty relaxed. I watched my two year old niece and few month old nephew while my sister was at the hospital getting tests done, don't know the full result yet but so far so good. That is something to be positive about. I also picked up my first school book and I am about to do my first homework assignments of the semester after I write these things down. That was my entire day.
Oh! I also woke up to a phone call from the temp agency I work for asking me to work on Friday and Saturday...which means more money, which makes me happy. I like waking up to those calls. I hate waking up to debt collectors. They suck. But whatcha gonna do?
Alright, well. Time to listen to music and read about public speaking. Goodnight!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
1/17/12 Pt. 2
Just a quick note. In my speech class today we were told to stand up in front of the class and talk about something we had with us that meant a lot. I said my phone, made a few jokes, whatever. But something that really just opened my eyes was this 16 year old girl that stood up. Yes, Daytona let's high schoolers in college classes and they're annoying. She came up with a set of car keys and said that her "best friend" her "daddy" bought her a brand new car for her 16th birthday and without it she wouldn't be able to get anywhere and do anything.
Few things. I didn't get my own car until I was over 18 and even now I still share my sister's car (my fault but whatever). The big thing that I wanted to point out is that my parents weren't wealthy. They made sure I never went without but couldn't afford to buy my lavish cars like a 2012 Lexus. Yes, they did buy me all 3 cars that I have had. A 1992 Infiniti G20, a 1998 Ford Mustang and a 1999 Kia Sportage. My point is... I work hard for what I have. Yes, my parents have gotten me a lot of stuff over time but it just seems to fail in comparison to a brand new car for her 16th birthday and it made me realize that I want to make sure to work hard and earn everything I get because without the hard work and the struggle, you don't appreciate it. That's all I wanted to say. See you tomorrow. :)
Few things. I didn't get my own car until I was over 18 and even now I still share my sister's car (my fault but whatever). The big thing that I wanted to point out is that my parents weren't wealthy. They made sure I never went without but couldn't afford to buy my lavish cars like a 2012 Lexus. Yes, they did buy me all 3 cars that I have had. A 1992 Infiniti G20, a 1998 Ford Mustang and a 1999 Kia Sportage. My point is... I work hard for what I have. Yes, my parents have gotten me a lot of stuff over time but it just seems to fail in comparison to a brand new car for her 16th birthday and it made me realize that I want to make sure to work hard and earn everything I get because without the hard work and the struggle, you don't appreciate it. That's all I wanted to say. See you tomorrow. :)
Post V - 1/17/12
Hey all. Today was the start of another semester for me at Daytona State College and let me tell ya, I am very optimistic about this. Maybe it is just the new "positive" outlook that I have on my life, but... last semester I got a 3.87 and I'm feeling very confident that I could get the perfect game, 4.0. It'll be a lot of work but then again... everything worth having IS a lot of hard work.
So, thanks to a lot of paperwork problems... I can only take 3 classes this semester but it works out. They're are going to be A LOT of work. First I had Intro to the teaching profession and let me tell you, I'm really interested in this. He talked about various teaching incentives and it made me more stoked to take on this career path. Also, some clerical error lead to some early bonding with my classmates and let me tell you... being a male in a mostly female class has it's advantages... :)
Anyway, next class is World Religions and a cute girl from the teaching class was in it and we got there early so we just talked for a while, which was nice. We'll see what happens with that. Stay tuned. Then there was speech.. All in all the day was good and I'm looking forward to learning a lot in the classes. Also, I put in my whopping 90something dollars from work at the club this weekend in the bank which allowed me to buy one of my text books. The other one will be bought when I get my pay check Friday and THEN I work at the club on Saturday for Fuel and will make more $$. Needless to say, I'm excited for the money.
Also, I just want to point out that I don't know what was the catalyst, maybe my positivity blog, but I re-connected with an old friend recently and I gotta say. It is very nice :)
Alright. I'm gonna go play some X-box and enjoy my night. You should too! Goodnight!
So, thanks to a lot of paperwork problems... I can only take 3 classes this semester but it works out. They're are going to be A LOT of work. First I had Intro to the teaching profession and let me tell you, I'm really interested in this. He talked about various teaching incentives and it made me more stoked to take on this career path. Also, some clerical error lead to some early bonding with my classmates and let me tell you... being a male in a mostly female class has it's advantages... :)
Anyway, next class is World Religions and a cute girl from the teaching class was in it and we got there early so we just talked for a while, which was nice. We'll see what happens with that. Stay tuned. Then there was speech.. All in all the day was good and I'm looking forward to learning a lot in the classes. Also, I put in my whopping 90something dollars from work at the club this weekend in the bank which allowed me to buy one of my text books. The other one will be bought when I get my pay check Friday and THEN I work at the club on Saturday for Fuel and will make more $$. Needless to say, I'm excited for the money.
Also, I just want to point out that I don't know what was the catalyst, maybe my positivity blog, but I re-connected with an old friend recently and I gotta say. It is very nice :)
Alright. I'm gonna go play some X-box and enjoy my night. You should too! Goodnight!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Post IV - Some philosophy
So this may or may not count as today's post. We shall see. Over the past 4+ years, my life has not been very great. I was kicked out of school cause I couldn't afford it because after my dad got sick, we lost a source of income and needed to pay all those medical bills and my family had to relocate to Florida, away from all my friends and anyway... I was no longer going to University of Hartford where I made a lot of friends, etc. Over the next 4 years my life was a roller coaster but overall just kept getting worse. This all culminated when my mom passed away in August. My mom and I were very close and after she passed I just went numb. I didn't feel the pain but my mentality and all was just going somewhere very dark. I wasn't suicidal or anything I just didn't enjoy anything. Then, I saw a concert with Big D and the Kid's Table and it quite possibly was the beginning of the turn around for me. Something about the concert and the energy was just... soothing. I even talked to the lead singer Dave after the show and it all just helped.
After the concert, I re-evaluated my life. My mom, over the course of a week went from obviously sick, but undiagnosed and with us to passed away. My DAD, in an instant went from completely fine to paralyzed stroke victim. Life is totally unexpected and unpredictable.
My dad always told me that it takes a second to get sick and a lifetime to get better. There's that song that goes "live like you're dying" and... I always misunderstood them all. I realize now, and this is the philosophy part, that I could die tomorrow. Why would I want my last day on Earth to be a day when I am depressed and sad? Instead, let all the insignificant stressors just roll off your back, don't pay them attention and enjoy your life. Secondly, you can't change the world and the more you think you can and it fails will just upset you. Instead, change the world's effect on you. You could sweat the small things or prioritize everything. Is it really the end of the world if your girlfriend breaks up with you? No. Sure it sucks. Especially if you've been together for awhile and you thought she was that "one." But really. You'll get by. Now, most things that would have upset me previous to this just don't bother me. True, I did have one day where I got really bogged down cause I was out of money, not working and had things to pay but I got myself out of it. I'm not perfect. But I'll try.
This is just part of my philosophy. More to come another time. :)
After the concert, I re-evaluated my life. My mom, over the course of a week went from obviously sick, but undiagnosed and with us to passed away. My DAD, in an instant went from completely fine to paralyzed stroke victim. Life is totally unexpected and unpredictable.
My dad always told me that it takes a second to get sick and a lifetime to get better. There's that song that goes "live like you're dying" and... I always misunderstood them all. I realize now, and this is the philosophy part, that I could die tomorrow. Why would I want my last day on Earth to be a day when I am depressed and sad? Instead, let all the insignificant stressors just roll off your back, don't pay them attention and enjoy your life. Secondly, you can't change the world and the more you think you can and it fails will just upset you. Instead, change the world's effect on you. You could sweat the small things or prioritize everything. Is it really the end of the world if your girlfriend breaks up with you? No. Sure it sucks. Especially if you've been together for awhile and you thought she was that "one." But really. You'll get by. Now, most things that would have upset me previous to this just don't bother me. True, I did have one day where I got really bogged down cause I was out of money, not working and had things to pay but I got myself out of it. I'm not perfect. But I'll try.
This is just part of my philosophy. More to come another time. :)
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Post III - Jan 15 2012
So. Today I woke up early for work, which is weird cause usually I wake up late because I just love the snooze button. But not today. I woke up, got dressed, was met by my dad who has been in a much better mood after my sister and I talked to him, I gave him his medicine, we sat and talked about work and then I left to get ready more. I also let my puppy, Tipsy, out, gave him water and then put him back to bed and then left for work. Work was lame but lucrative so I can't hate.
At 6, when I was scheduled to leave, I called the supervisor about that and he asked me to stay til 9:30. I need the money so I said yes. This next part is pretty cool. Earlier in the day, a deaf lady pulled up to me asking directions. I've NEVER had to communicate with a deaf person before and it was such an interesting experience. First off, to be completely blind and/or deaf must suck so much. But! I think the way these people adapt is inspiring. This lady read my lips and I directed her to her final destination. She seemed so grateful that I took the time to explain things for her and it really warmed me inside. So anyway... when I went to dinner (at the BK lounge ;)) I ordered a tendercrisp meal but when I tried to pay with my card but it got declined... So instead I asked for a sandwich and a value drink (free refills baby!) well, the clerk already handed me the medium cup and didn't swap it out. So, I got my drink and waiting for my sandwich. Well, I THINK it was an accident but I'm not so sure, the lady threw in a value fry too. Which was awesome :) So I got a full meal for like...2 bucks cheaper. Karma. Do good things, good things happen.
So... I believe that's mostly all I've got for today... I'm very tired so I know I'm missing things. Oh! One thing before signing off. The 100 Days Positive was an idea brought to me by my friend Zach Neil. And today on Facebook he wrote the following:
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At 6, when I was scheduled to leave, I called the supervisor about that and he asked me to stay til 9:30. I need the money so I said yes. This next part is pretty cool. Earlier in the day, a deaf lady pulled up to me asking directions. I've NEVER had to communicate with a deaf person before and it was such an interesting experience. First off, to be completely blind and/or deaf must suck so much. But! I think the way these people adapt is inspiring. This lady read my lips and I directed her to her final destination. She seemed so grateful that I took the time to explain things for her and it really warmed me inside. So anyway... when I went to dinner (at the BK lounge ;)) I ordered a tendercrisp meal but when I tried to pay with my card but it got declined... So instead I asked for a sandwich and a value drink (free refills baby!) well, the clerk already handed me the medium cup and didn't swap it out. So, I got my drink and waiting for my sandwich. Well, I THINK it was an accident but I'm not so sure, the lady threw in a value fry too. Which was awesome :) So I got a full meal for like...2 bucks cheaper. Karma. Do good things, good things happen.
So... I believe that's mostly all I've got for today... I'm very tired so I know I'm missing things. Oh! One thing before signing off. The 100 Days Positive was an idea brought to me by my friend Zach Neil. And today on Facebook he wrote the following:
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Post 2 - January 14, 2012
So yesterday involved me working 2 jobs which I've noticed that people like to complain about. Long hours, lots of standing... I say... hey! So many Americans are unemployed, I have bills today, I'll do whatever I need to do. I worked at a parking garage, directing traffic from 10 to 7 and then had a quick break to eat a grilled cheese with bacon and tomato from the Earl Street Grill. It was awesome!
Then it was second job time. I work as a barback at a rock club called The Bad Habit Lounge in Daytona Beach. The show was The Supervillians, a ska/reggae band from Florida that I had previously seen on tour with Reel Big Fish and The English Beat. Back then, I was NOT very impressed with them, actually a little annoyed by them. But this show was awesome! They were just amazing and gave me a lot of ideas for the new ska band I am forming (speaking of which, while working I wrote a lot of lyrics for some new songs).
So the biggest positive from the night was making $140 in cash from tips at the bar. Very nice. Alright. Now to write another blog about today. :)
Then it was second job time. I work as a barback at a rock club called The Bad Habit Lounge in Daytona Beach. The show was The Supervillians, a ska/reggae band from Florida that I had previously seen on tour with Reel Big Fish and The English Beat. Back then, I was NOT very impressed with them, actually a little annoyed by them. But this show was awesome! They were just amazing and gave me a lot of ideas for the new ska band I am forming (speaking of which, while working I wrote a lot of lyrics for some new songs).
So the biggest positive from the night was making $140 in cash from tips at the bar. Very nice. Alright. Now to write another blog about today. :)
Friday, January 13, 2012
Post 1 - Jan 13, 2012
Well, today started different than usual, my house was almost completely empty. Usually my house, which is occupied by 12 total people, is busy and people are everywhere. But today, the children were at school and my sister and brother-in-law and the two babies were out at a flea market for the day. So I made a cup of coffee and sat down to finish watching "Crazy, Stupid Love," which I had been trying to watch for the past week but finally was able to.
While watching, my dad woke up. My dad has suffered several strokes over the past several years and he is paralyzed on his left side and relies on the rest of us for a lot. Well, today dad was not in the best of moods. He snapped at me a few times in the morning for not getting something from the store that he wanted, I told him I would go get it when the school kids came home.
After that, the kids came home, I caught up on the one episode of Big Bang Theory that I had missed and thoroughly enjoyed it. I then made myself lunch and got dressed to go to the store. I then went outside to the car to realize that it wasn't there because my sister was using it. I go into tell him that we had to wait a little longer and that was the last straw. He fought with me and my 17 year old niece and tempers really flared.
Around 5:30 my sister came home, she and her husband went to talk to dad while I went to the store. All in all we talked everything through with dad and HOPEFULLY the drama is done for a while.
We then had dinner, I got my hair cut by my brother-in-law and then I showered to get ready for work tomorrow. I'm actually working 2 jobs tomorrow and making a bunch of money and getting paid to see a concert of a band that I really like, so I'm excited. This is the start of this blog so. I'll see you guys tomorrow! :)
While watching, my dad woke up. My dad has suffered several strokes over the past several years and he is paralyzed on his left side and relies on the rest of us for a lot. Well, today dad was not in the best of moods. He snapped at me a few times in the morning for not getting something from the store that he wanted, I told him I would go get it when the school kids came home.
After that, the kids came home, I caught up on the one episode of Big Bang Theory that I had missed and thoroughly enjoyed it. I then made myself lunch and got dressed to go to the store. I then went outside to the car to realize that it wasn't there because my sister was using it. I go into tell him that we had to wait a little longer and that was the last straw. He fought with me and my 17 year old niece and tempers really flared.
Around 5:30 my sister came home, she and her husband went to talk to dad while I went to the store. All in all we talked everything through with dad and HOPEFULLY the drama is done for a while.
We then had dinner, I got my hair cut by my brother-in-law and then I showered to get ready for work tomorrow. I'm actually working 2 jobs tomorrow and making a bunch of money and getting paid to see a concert of a band that I really like, so I'm excited. This is the start of this blog so. I'll see you guys tomorrow! :)
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