A year ago today was the last time I saw my mom. I got home from work around 5am on August 19, 2011 only a few days my mom was told she didn't have long to live after being diagnosed with stage four cancer. After hearing this, day after day she got worse and worse. After going to bed, I woke up around 10am when my sister was taking her kids to do something for school. I told my mom and dad that if they needed anything to call and let me know, I then went back to bed. The day went on, nurses came in to see her and finally hospice came and convinced her to go to their facility so they can make her comfortable she agreed to go and around 10 she left and the condition she was in, I just couldn't bear to see her. At 12:01am on August 20, 2011 my mom passed away. My family fell apart. My mom was our rock, she knew how to do EVERYTHING. She balanced our books, took care of my sick dad, took care of her kids, grandkids and more. So in the following months we all didn't know how to get by and honestly I look back and don't remember the following 6 months after that. I was in such a haze that nothing really stuck.
This kind of brings me to the point of my writing. It's seemed that we've had a new angel somewhere for us. I don't know if there is a God or Heaven. I'm not saying there's not, I just don't know. But I just know that my mom's spirit, or being, or even just the thought of her, is guiding us to amazing things.
I don't know how but we ended up renovating and moving into our new house in December, but we did. I had a 3.8 GPA in my first semester back in school in 3 years (my mom wanted nothing more than me to finish school). I also finally have a full time, good paying job, a second job doing something I love (being a concert promoter) and more.
That, and many other examples, just gives the idea that my mom is my, and my family's guardian angel looking down on us and helping take care of us like she does so well. I love her so much and miss her even more. I can't believe it's been a year already.
That's all I've gotta say today. Good day!
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